Okay... So I had a rough weekend... it was a bit depressing, but I had great friends and family trying to lift my spirits. So that's always good!

On to more goals...

Physical/Fitness

So this is a huge deal to me... anyone that knows me knows I've fought with weight issues my whole life. I'm tired of fighting with a defeated mentality... if you think you'll succeed or you think you'll fail.... you're probably right. So I'm going into this with the decision that I'm going to succeed! And i'm off to a good start! I have been taking medication for type 2 diabetes for the past three years, I was taken off the medication today! I have lost 86 lbs since my first doc visit as a diabetic three years ago. My doctor was very happy with me today!

I went shopping last week and got in a size three sizes smaller than what I thought i would be wearing! That was fun. They were kind of tight so I didn't buy them, but I'm thinking of going back to get them because I will be in them comfortably before long!

okay so for the goals...

Eating Right - I'm starting a new eating plan (thanks to Emily) that focuses on proteins and not allowing myself to get hungry... it's meant to up my metabolism. I will admit that I'm an emotional eater... I'm also a bored eater... when I'm emotional or bored it's like the kitchen calls to me. Right now I'm emotional with all that's been going on and now that I don't have any place to be, I'm bored. This is a recipe for disaster! So I have been trying to keep myself busy, finding somewhere, anywhere to be besides sitting at home alone. Unfortunately a lot of the people I like to hang out with for some reason like to continuously offer me food... bad food like hotdogs and chips or cake... it's so wrong!

Here are a couple of the breakfasts I've had lately

 This is 4 egg whites and one yoke (accidentally dropped it in and couldn't get it out), a pepper/onion mix and a little low fat mozzarella cheese with tomato slices and one piece of whole wheat toast.

 

My friend Emily has been helping me with my food plan. She is awesome! And this is one of her signature dishes "Emily's Omelet" though mine is more like Emily's Scramble... 4 egg whites, sliced portabella mushrooms, some ground turkey and a handful of fresh spinach with a little low fat mozzarella on top and again a few tomato slices. Very yummy and ended up being a lot of food!

My next goal is to exercise at least five times a week. I think I'm going to go with three days of strength training and two days of cardio. I got a membership to the Wellness Center (the gym ran by the hospital here in town) and I bought a used treadmill. Now if I can just convince myself to roll out of bed early enough to eat a good breakfast and walk on my treadmill before work. 

I can't thank my friend Emily enough for all her help with meal planning and strength training plans. She has been such a big help to me through everything along with my other amazing friends that have checked on me and offered to meet up or go places together. I am so thankful for all the wonderful people in my life.

oh... I guess I didn't really list "goals" as much as "plans" but I will say i plan to be within a healthy weight range within the year... I will break it down by quarters and months in the next few days. I also want to go to a theme part for my 38th birthday and ride every ride I couldn't ride while heavy (I was always scared the belts/safty harness wouldn't fit or that the ride would break and I would be stuck because I couldn't climb down from something without falling to my death... that might be as much my fear of heights as my weight, so lets go for getting over the fear too).

Okay... I have spent three days trying to write this post... I have to head out to change for a zumba class so I'm posting it now.. forgive any typos or ramblings... and say a lil prayer for me emotionally and to get through my first zumba class without fainting lol